You know sometimes when you either see, hear, smell, touch or even taste something and it just triggers your mind. Usually we hope and aim for good thoughts but as mch as we try sometimes it provokes a whole circus of thoughts. Well tonight when I saw this and as much as I love this and love the idea it also made me angry and made me think about how a certain person in my life took something I can't replace. I am not one to finger point and I will not argue with her over it but it hurts to think that she thinks her needs are and were more important than mine. Finally I am in a home where I feel safe and my ultimate wish is to have photos of my dad on my wall. Nothing unusual you say but the prob is years back I loaned them to a sister so she could get copies and have not and highly doubt I will ever see again. Go take more you say, well I would love to but the next prob is he died when I was little. I'd love to make a spot in my house where my children could get to know their grandad - i know he would have loved them dearly and them him. A shrine possiblely not that xtreme but i know I feel him often watching over us and talk of him often with the kids and i just wish I could show him how much he is and always will be part of my life. But now tonight my head is running amuck.
